Fasting and half marathon training again

Hari ni aku berpuasa. But yet training must go on. Bukan apa kalau nak tunggu 2 minggu puasa nazar ni habis baru nak training memang tak cukup masa dah for the Half Marathon. Sorry to make big fuse out of the Half Marathon, but to be truth at this point of time finishing the Half Marathon tends to bother me more than my weight issue.

I will let it be because thus far by focusing on the Half Marathon training and forget about my weight issue works like throw 2 birds with one stone (herm betul ker ni?). Kirenya meaning to say, serampang dua matalah..tembak satu dua2 kena.

So pagi tadi tak sahur sebab terlampau kenyang. Luckily I didn't work today so I got to enjoy half day nap (the hell nap??) before hit the gym at about 7.30 p.m. I was in between whether to break fast first and do the 5K or do the 5K first and break fast right after I finish.

I eventually hit the gym first after being nagged by Mr Keli. I kind of agree though because if I eat first I might having trouble to carry all the fats and the foods during the run. Hah! Ingatkan I couldn't do better than my record last two days. Yelah puasa kan, siap tak sahur lagi. Siap frust2 and giveup dengan diri sendiri and boleh pulak fikir nak stop and go home when I reached 2.5K. Last2 pujuk diri sendiri and jalan2 slow and to my surprise mood, semangat and tenaga tu datang balik sikit2.

So friends, if you feel like quitting, just hang in there a little longer who knows you can change your mind and push your body to the extra maximum. That's what I did. And I..

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Manage to finish the 5K in 39 minutes and 51 seconds. I know you will be like: "ek eleh minah ni, ingat 15 minutes siap 5K tadi. Kecoh jer". Hahahaha..but whatever ok. Sebabkan saya puasa saya amat2 puas hati. it takes time people. It seriously does.

When I talked to a best friend yesterday, "Die, can this fat me run a Half Marathon with consistent training". She was like, "Of course darling, is not about your weight but your endurance. How your heart is going to take it makes a different, your body is always capable (provided you train enough),". Oh by the way, she's a physiotherapist.

And trust me, that's not lines of comfort from her. This friend of mine will hardly lie. She will tell the truth straight to my face or anyone. Like for example, "You're not gonna get married to this useless guy, just leave him already, don't dream too much,".

Ouchhhh right? I know.. :D That's my best friend a.k.a big sister Didie!

Very first training for Half Marathon

So I did a 5K yesterday. Before I went to the gym I actually done a lot of mental preparation. I slept well, I ate on time and I set my mind to be as determine or maybe as neutral as possible. Yes, I was scared. I have no clue why this time around, going to the gym seems to frighten me a lot. I'm scared that I can't lift up to my own expectation. I don't usually have a high expectation on myself but then the Half Marathon have seriously got into my mine. After read all the rules and regulations of the Half Marathon, I feel like this is so ridiculous. I won't be able to do it at all.

I was thinking about it almost every seconds. And most of the time I end up feeling that I have made such a huge mistake. I'm never a runner. I'm not even a jogger. I will be kicked out in the first 15 minutes of the marathon. These lines keep playing in my mind. Ok stop whining already! Huh! Kalau layan feeling ni..memang duk complain je 24 jam.

But still for the past two days I actually dragged my legs to the gym and finished up a couple of 5K. Kudos to my dying self. The first trial was hard. And the second one was harder! Yes, surprisingly. These are my shameful records:

1st Day 5K
Time : 40 minutes 45 seconds
Average pace : NIL
Average speed: NIL

And actually during the second trial I had stomach pain after a short run. I keep holding it in throughout the 5K. My body and my mind wasn't as good as the first time. So I was thinking that my timing is going to be really out today. But then I keep forcing myself to stay on track like yesterday. I won't be able to finish it 20 seconds faster(as you can see below) if I didn't speed upto 10.5km/hour for the last minutes. I think I'm more of a sprinter than a marathoner. Huh jangan mimpi actually neither a sprinter nor a marathoner. Mimpi sajer!

2nd Day 5K
Time : 40 minutes 25 seconds
Average pace : NIL
Average speed: 7.2km/hour

When I was running/jogging I did a lot of calculation. With my current time, I will definitely be disqualified before even get to the half point of the half marathon. I am too slow. And it's really killing me because I think I gave my best in these two 5K. My heart sometimes feel like it's going to pop out when I'm running especially on the last few minutes that I 'try' to sprint. How am I going to finish up a 21K for in the same speed for the sake of the Half Marathon? God knows.

But I'm wishing as I keep training 2-3 times per week and lose few KGs I would be able to run a little longer, a bit faster, and having a more trusted endurance level. Aminn...Allah bless. As for know, just get the legs to do the bloody 5K every other day.

p/s: To join a 5K dash in Canberra Running Festivals you need to finish up within 25 minutes or off you go. My best record is 15 minutes after that max time. I did a mistake for signing up a Half Marathon. Didn't I?

Flash Back on Fitness

Semalam ada cuba-cuba nak mengupload video kat sini. Saja nak berubah angin sikit. Kadang-kadang menaip setiap masa bosan juga. Tapi percubaan gagal. Setelah 4-5 kali mencuba dan gagal barulah masalah dikenalpasti. Mungkin video tu terlampau tinggi capacity nya. Semangat nak record high definition saja. Sekali tak lepas pulak.

Aghh..Takpe. Ringkasannya video tu suppose to update on my weight and fitness progress la. The last diet program was okay but it didn’t last that long for me to get the desired result. My aim nak dapat ideal weight before engagement day was totally devastated. Even I have lost about 5KGS. It wasn't enough.

Agak sedih juga. I can tell through the photo of the E-day that I still chubby in my 79KG. Really ugly. I mean as Allah creation I’m all good and perfect but my size made me look damn ugly. It's totally my bad. I stuffed all the rubbish for at least the past 18 years. I didn't look like a bride to be at all. Even my fiance didn’t say anything about it, I still felt that I had embarrass him by being so fat! Sorry darling!

I looked obviously bigger than my 'future mother in law' (FMIL)
who has 4 kids. That sucks.

I might look happy..tp dalam hati yang sedih
dan segan ni Allah je yang tahu.

I liked this photo. But honestly I should looked bigger
if not because of the brilliant photographer.

And eventually my worst nightmare came true. One of his relatives did comment on my body. "So chubby with plum cheeks". I know that's definitely me and therefore I shouldn't be angry about it. But memang rasa horrible gila. Feeling that I'm ugly and I don't deserve to be a bride. Memanglah people would say all this doesn't matter yang penting cantik dalam. But what if you don't own any of them? Shitty right!

But as I keep telling myself..no matter how many diet I failed, how many times I gave up, and how hard it's going to be, I will keep making comebacks until I achieved this particular childhood dream of being slim, slender, strong and healthy of course!

So my very latest resolution that I have decided on was to register for a marathon like I mentioned earlier and I had began my training yesterday. Will story more about this. Definitely! I have no idea whether this is going to work or just another 'failure going to be'. But I just don't care. I just need to do it. No matter how tough it is. I just need to do it. I doubt myself every single seconds of my breath but still...it needs to be done.

It makes me feel so sick that I can achieved almost every other wishes and dream that I have worked on so far, but not the one that I wanted the most. :'( To be slim.........

Selekeh, comot dan debab... :(

Keja Gila!

I have done a crazy thing tonight. Really crazy. Never in my life dreaming about this let alone really doing it. At first, all seems easy, rationale and precisely the right thing to do. But not after I see this appear on my screen.

Tahniah, kaki anda bakal patah! (Lebih kurang tulah maksud dia)

Yeah I think I was possessed when I did it. I know it's in my 2012 wishes but still isn't it so crazy for an overweight girl to RUN A HALF MARATHON? What am I thinking???! Kill me already.

Tiba2 kaki rasa berdenyut-denyut.

Sesape ada wat dosa ngan aku tu, cepat-cepatlah mintak maaf sebelum bulan 4 ni ye.

Cik Bab nak lari half marathon. Biar betul??!!
Kasik chance ha..
Sape nak tolong tampor laju2 ni?

Sape ada tips untuk training for Half Marathon bawak-bawaklah share ok Aduhai..fenin2..Cuma tinggal 2 bulan saje lagi. Just nak finish je.

Y blog?

Blog hai Blog..nak kene make up sikit niey..

Antara makanan yang menyumbang kepada penurunan 3kg seminggu

Here's my list for this week:
Makanan:
- Telur goreng/ rebus (biasanyer wat sarapan)
- Ayam goreng/grill
- Ikan microwave/goreng
- Kambing grill


Sayur:
- kobis
- bayam
- tomato
- cendawan
- bawang (sayur ke ni?)

Lain-lain:
- Cheese
- Lada hitam

Air:
Air kosong sahaja


Rasanya nak try go on with this lagi seminggu, tengok masih konsisten tak penurunan. Wish me luck! I really need this :'(

Amazing dalam hazab

Lepas seminggu or 7 hari wat diet Atkins ni...
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Ermm dari 83.7kg turun ker 80.5kg!

Pergh...memang dasyat.
Kalau konsisten ni..nampaknyer merasalah dapat normal weight before my E-day.
Tak pernah lagi berdiet turun camni.
Mungkin kali ni betul2 kuat azam.
1 pantang larang pun kite tak langgar.

Tapi ader satu turn off point disebalik kegembiraan yang susah nak digambarkan ni.
I am having terribly bad constipation! Hazabbbbbbbbbbb gile!
Siap leh feeling... "Ni ker rasanyer beranak sok2"..kerut2 dahi...teran2..tak keluar gak.
Air mata siap berlinang-linangkuar. Aduh serius!

Minum air definitely dah more than 3 litres. Tak jadi masalah nak minum banyak manerpun.
Cuma bile time keje tu susah sikitlah.
Tapi walau apapun, tetap lebih dari 3 litres.
Hadoi tensen. Sampai leh berazam taknak sentuh daging dah.
Nak belasah ikan jer. Sadis!~

Nak kate tak makan sayur xjugak, leh kata daging ngan sayur same banyak.
Rasanyer nak up water to 4 litres.
Dan disamping itu amik supplement fibre.
Memang hazab.
Tak nak experience dah! Cukuppppp!!!!!

Anyway I'm celebrating 80.5kg still!!!
Can't wait 77.5kg next week.
Memang try aim 3kg per week.
Tapi kalau kurang xjadi masalah.
Lebih lagi takder masalah.
Ok done!

So far...

28/10/11 (Friday)
Makan
Tembikai 2 slices (60)
Mushroom 1 mangkuk (60)
Tiramisu cake (311)
Milo (200)

Total eat: 631 (too little)


Exercise
Walk while working for 5 hours (1000)

Total burned : 1000

Calories deficit: 1600(BMR)-600(earn)+1000(throw)= 2000 calories

29/10/11 (Saturday)
Makan

Sayur campur (200)

Telur goreng 2 biji (120)

Tomato 2 biji (60)

Fish (400)

Cheese (100)

Total eat: 880

Exercise:

Thread Mill 1 hour (500)

Rowing 3000meter (300)

Steps 700 steps (200)

Bicycle (110)

Total burned :1010

Calories deficit: 1600(BMR)-880(earn)+1110(throw) = 1830 calories

Nak start diet balik

Lepas dah lame tak hupdate, arini aku gelabah balik.
Tetibe jer aku nak ditunangkan bulan 12 ni.
Oh tidakkk,,, sebenarnyer aku yg gatal nak bertunang.
Ok xper, that's the story of another day.
Sekarang camner ni. Huduhlah gambar aku tu nanti.

So nak taknak buat kali ke 18 ribu, aku nak start diet balik.
Hermm, penat plak asyik mula stop mula stop.
Best achievement so far rasenyer 10 kg kowt.
Itupun melaut amik 4,5 bulan sebab banyak main.

Tapi sekarang aku ada dua bulan jer.
Ha saper nk tolong jawab? Ko, ko ataupun ko?
Ha dah memang sumenyer xleh jawab.
So aku yang gelabah ni pown cepat wt resolusi aku start Atkins.
Bukan esok, lusa, mahupun harini...tapi semalam!

Aghhhh tensen. Aku rase aku akan xberapa nampak
cam org gemuk (walaupun hakikatnyer aku gemuk) kalau aku
dapat lost 14 kgs. Kire cam berat aku sekarang = 84 kg-14kgs =70kgs.

Yes, memangnyer aku 84kg. Xsenonoh kan. Nak buat camner.
Tapi walaupun berat aku di lapan puluhan orang salu je teka berat aku 60an.
Paling musuk pun diorang cakap 70an. So ni kalau aku turun ker 70an
manerlah tau kot2 leh nampak macam 50an. Kekekekek.

Ok pendek citer aku start Atkins ari semalam.
Aku akan wat report kat sini hari2. Bukan untuk tatapan orang (manerlah tahu
gagal karang malu), tapi untuk rekod diri sendiri.
Nama projek aku: 14kgs lose before e-day challenge (FOKBEC).
Wahhh kelas, ader name bagai. Tak complete projek ni aku tak taulah.
Dah takdir aku lah nak jadi bakso forever agaknyer.

So aku plan lah kan...plan. Aku nak wat satu weekly journal tentang apa
aku makan, apa aku exercise ari, n akunyer weight progress. Hermm every saturday cool x? Every fridaylah. Ha tgklah between these two. Oklah aku nak pi masak
dinner sat. Aku target by saturday next week aku nyer weight turun 3 kgs.
Aminn...would let u guys know. Nak tunang nyer pasal!

Lepas ngelat lama2

CYC 7
Berat : 78.2 kg
Tinggi : 1.65
BMI: 28.7 (overweight)
-secoet xberganjak. Benci. Benci.



CYC 8
Berat : 77.8 kg
Tinggi : 1.65
BMI: 28.6 (overweight)